Months ago I created this blog in an effort to find something special about each day. In an effort to live life to the fullest. I haven't kept to my promise at all.
Someone told me today that the dynamics of the relationship I had with them were such that - they ended up 'using' me. Though as much as I appreciated the honesty, it also made me realise. I am sick of this nice person tag, and at the same moment I realised its so who I am though. I will no matter what forgive and go out of my way, and in the process get used. My dad is the same way, and when I asked him once why this way dad, he told me he wouldn't trade it for anything else. And today I understand what it means. I will no doubt get used in my life, and have disappointments and be a mat for people - but ultimately its not me - its a character flaw in them. And what I do need to learn is to not allow myself to be nice to everyone. Yes, innocent until proven guilty, but once proven guilty - depending on the activity - no more nice person.
Everyday I am thankful to god for having such awesome people in my life. Strangers even that care for me. I am so blessed and loved, and I can't let the few unfortunate people who think the dynamics were such that my forgiving them is to be used - well I say to them - screw you.
Life is short. Life is sucky. People die and all I know is on my death bed and after that, when people remember me - I am remembered as a nice person. I am the person that will cause the generations after me to believe in humanity, in the good of people.
Today, all I ask is embrace that part of yourself even if that part is responsible for causing you some major hurt in your life.
No song for today, but this quote fits perfectly.
Quote for Today:
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. ~ E.E. Cummings.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Post # 6: The Very Perfect Day - My Blogger Yaars!
Perfect days are hard to come by. So whenever one has them, one has to make sure to save them up and treasure them for the Rainy Days.
Yesterday I got my scholarship offer in the mail that said they would pay for half my tuition. It made me very very happy.
So I was delighted all day, and then later at night while I was cooking, A Walk to Remember was on TV. And I love that movie. So that made me even happier.
Events like this make you realise that life does get better. It does! It really does.
It also made me realise if I could do the following things in life, I would be a good person and that would be good enough for me to happy.
Important things to have in life - Honesty, Principles, Integrity, Dignity, Humility and Respect.
And through this entire process I am realising who my true friends are. And for that too am grateful.
So this post is for all my blogger people - Brok3n, Ugly, and Samar. For seriously always brightening up my day.
I am so happy to have you three in my life.
Saachi.
Quote of the Day:
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” - Not Known
Song of the Day: Umberalla By Rihanna
Appropriate Lyrics:
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
*Blogger Family Hug*
Yesterday I got my scholarship offer in the mail that said they would pay for half my tuition. It made me very very happy.
So I was delighted all day, and then later at night while I was cooking, A Walk to Remember was on TV. And I love that movie. So that made me even happier.
Events like this make you realise that life does get better. It does! It really does.
It also made me realise if I could do the following things in life, I would be a good person and that would be good enough for me to happy.
Important things to have in life - Honesty, Principles, Integrity, Dignity, Humility and Respect.
And through this entire process I am realising who my true friends are. And for that too am grateful.
So this post is for all my blogger people - Brok3n, Ugly, and Samar. For seriously always brightening up my day.
I am so happy to have you three in my life.
Saachi.
Quote of the Day:
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.” - Not Known
Song of the Day: Umberalla By Rihanna
Appropriate Lyrics:
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
*Blogger Family Hug*
Sunday, March 21, 2010
A great day. Was it a date?
The great day started with getting up late, and heading out with my first outing with a guy in over in a really long time.
We went to eat lunch at Bombay Chutney, I don't know why I took him there but I did. We had chilli paneer and chola (how I love chola). And then after the meal when I went to wash my hands, he had placed a lottery ticket on my phone. $3 worth. For the 41 million jackpot. We then told each other what we would do with the 2 million (cause we were both going to donate the rest of it.) And he paid for lunch, I thought that was unnecessary but since so much was left over and I insisted since he lived by himself that he take it home, I guess he felt he had to pay for lunch. He told me it was his treat, I joked that he should have told me before cause I didn't order dessert.
We went to shoppers. Turns out we are not 41 million dollars richer. Who would have thought? Oh well.
Then we got lost for a bit, and then found our way to Ikea. Had a wonderful time picking out furniture, making him look at all the feminine items like candles and red textiles :P. So much fun! It also got me totally excited cause I would be doing all of this again in a couple of months but for my OWN PLACE!! Woot. Can't wait. But seriously, we picked his bed and side tables and other nice stuff.
We paid. And then we went to an ice cream place. And we talked for two hours about random shit while I ate my huge ice cream in a cup. I paid this time. Only fair no?
And then he dropped me to where I had parked my car at Bombay Chutney.
Today: I had such an awesome time, such honest conversation. Such cool conversation and so much laughter. We kept bursting into laughs at the store and people looked at us weird. Probably thought we were a couple. I know at the restaurant they definitely thought so.
So all in all, I hung out with him for 8 hours! That is such a long time. Exchanged some texts after that. Thanks and all that. Cause we're both so polite in that sense. He sent me a couple of songs from his CD too, and thanks again.
And then of course the questions from the parents started - what does he do? where does he work? how did you guys meet again? After answering what seemed like a million questions (but were only three), I asked why they were asking all this. Just like that was the answer. Everyone knows when someone says JUST LIKE THAT, they don't mean just like that.
And then I came home and cleared out my purse and my wallet and actually transferred stuff into a new kickass wallet. And that totally totally made me so happy. Little things do that to me. I went downstairs to show my mom like I was a 5 year old child. It was just the icing on the cake I tell you.
And by then it was like 9:30pm, so I tried reading Catch 22 cause Chhavi (which btw is my sister and also the person that took that above kickass header picture), really really thinks its an awesome book and I should read.
Its 420 something pages, that scared me. So I read 15. Went and helped my mom with this editorial thingy she has to write and viola here I am.
Today was a great day. And I see him again next Sunday for Atif's and Shreya's concert. I don't know what we are or where we stand. All I know is, I have fun with him. And for now that is just good enough.
:)
Quote of the Day: “From small beginnings come great things.” - Proverb Quotes.
Song of the Day: Aao Na - Kyun Ho Gaya Na
Appropriate Lyrics:
We went to eat lunch at Bombay Chutney, I don't know why I took him there but I did. We had chilli paneer and chola (how I love chola). And then after the meal when I went to wash my hands, he had placed a lottery ticket on my phone. $3 worth. For the 41 million jackpot. We then told each other what we would do with the 2 million (cause we were both going to donate the rest of it.) And he paid for lunch, I thought that was unnecessary but since so much was left over and I insisted since he lived by himself that he take it home, I guess he felt he had to pay for lunch. He told me it was his treat, I joked that he should have told me before cause I didn't order dessert.
We went to shoppers. Turns out we are not 41 million dollars richer. Who would have thought? Oh well.
Then we got lost for a bit, and then found our way to Ikea. Had a wonderful time picking out furniture, making him look at all the feminine items like candles and red textiles :P. So much fun! It also got me totally excited cause I would be doing all of this again in a couple of months but for my OWN PLACE!! Woot. Can't wait. But seriously, we picked his bed and side tables and other nice stuff.
We paid. And then we went to an ice cream place. And we talked for two hours about random shit while I ate my huge ice cream in a cup. I paid this time. Only fair no?
And then he dropped me to where I had parked my car at Bombay Chutney.
Today: I had such an awesome time, such honest conversation. Such cool conversation and so much laughter. We kept bursting into laughs at the store and people looked at us weird. Probably thought we were a couple. I know at the restaurant they definitely thought so.
So all in all, I hung out with him for 8 hours! That is such a long time. Exchanged some texts after that. Thanks and all that. Cause we're both so polite in that sense. He sent me a couple of songs from his CD too, and thanks again.
And then of course the questions from the parents started - what does he do? where does he work? how did you guys meet again? After answering what seemed like a million questions (but were only three), I asked why they were asking all this. Just like that was the answer. Everyone knows when someone says JUST LIKE THAT, they don't mean just like that.
And then I came home and cleared out my purse and my wallet and actually transferred stuff into a new kickass wallet. And that totally totally made me so happy. Little things do that to me. I went downstairs to show my mom like I was a 5 year old child. It was just the icing on the cake I tell you.
And by then it was like 9:30pm, so I tried reading Catch 22 cause Chhavi (which btw is my sister and also the person that took that above kickass header picture), really really thinks its an awesome book and I should read.
Its 420 something pages, that scared me. So I read 15. Went and helped my mom with this editorial thingy she has to write and viola here I am.
Today was a great day. And I see him again next Sunday for Atif's and Shreya's concert. I don't know what we are or where we stand. All I know is, I have fun with him. And for now that is just good enough.
:)
Quote of the Day: “From small beginnings come great things.” - Proverb Quotes.
Song of the Day: Aao Na - Kyun Ho Gaya Na
Appropriate Lyrics:
Ghunji Si Hai Sari Fiza Jaise Bajti Ho Shehnaiyaan
Leherati Hai Mehki Hawa Gungunati Hain Tanhaiyaan
Sab Gaate Hain Sab Hi Madhosh Hain
Hum Tum Kyun Khamosh Hain
Saaz - E- Dil Chedo Na
Chup Ho Kyun Gaavon Na
Aao Na.. Ao Na... Aao Na... Aao Na...
Leherati Hai Mehki Hawa Gungunati Hain Tanhaiyaan
Sab Gaate Hain Sab Hi Madhosh Hain
Hum Tum Kyun Khamosh Hain
Saaz - E- Dil Chedo Na
Chup Ho Kyun Gaavon Na
Aao Na.. Ao Na... Aao Na... Aao Na...
Yeh Hua Kya Humein Hum Ko Samjhaoo Na...(2)
Sab Gaate Hain ...Khamosh Hain
Dil Mein Jo Baatein Hai
Hdton Pe Laoo Na
Aao Na... Aao Na...
My Savior.
When I was a child, I had problems. Some kids don't, but I was not one of them.
I was bullied, I was neglected at school. In short, it was bad. I didn't know it at the time but I had mild dyslexia and ADHD. My teachers never bothered to understand me. I was a bit like that kid from Taare Zameen Par (that movie hit home).
The only thing that was different about me and that kid was that I had the world's best parents. They refused to give up on me. Especially my mom. She wouldn't believe I was dumb - her reasoning was that she had taught me and I was a bright kid but something else was interfering with my learning. Smart lady - she was right, something was interfering.
My parents saw an Ad in th paper one morning, of a doctor in Dubai (we lived in Abu Dhabi then) who dealt with problems kids had. So there in a few days time, I was at that clinic. Thus started the journey of my transformation.
I was in therapy for two years, my parents had therapy on how to deal with my issues better and I had therapy cause at this point I had zero self esteem and confidence left. So I had therapy to deal with that, I had therapy on how to deal with dyselxia and ADHD. Every weekend for two years we used to drive to Dubai for a weekend full of therapy. I hope I can be the kind of parents my parents were, cause that definitely was mentally and physically draining. I guess they really loved me.
I know its random to mention all this, but the lady that ran the clinic came into my life like an angel - when I needed her the most. She came and changed me, she saved me. She taught me how to love myself (she wouldn't know years later a man would come into my life and erase the effort she made but for years after therapy - I did love myself. I was proud of who I was).
Today, my dad somehow searched for her randomly online and found her. And just like that he called her up. She was so happy to hear from him and was even so pleased to hear how I was doing - and how far (in her own words) I had come. It meant so much to me for her to say that to my dad. And now her daughter studies in Toronto and she said she wants to meet us all next time she comes to Toronto.
She was so happy to know I am going to be a psychologist too. It was such a wonderful thing. And since it happened right in the morning, it made me happy for the rest of the day.
Angels come in all shapes and sizes, we may not know but we just need to look closer :)
No quotes or songs for today. Somehow I think I won't be able to find anything that can measure this emotion and what it meant for me.
I was bullied, I was neglected at school. In short, it was bad. I didn't know it at the time but I had mild dyslexia and ADHD. My teachers never bothered to understand me. I was a bit like that kid from Taare Zameen Par (that movie hit home).
The only thing that was different about me and that kid was that I had the world's best parents. They refused to give up on me. Especially my mom. She wouldn't believe I was dumb - her reasoning was that she had taught me and I was a bright kid but something else was interfering with my learning. Smart lady - she was right, something was interfering.
My parents saw an Ad in th paper one morning, of a doctor in Dubai (we lived in Abu Dhabi then) who dealt with problems kids had. So there in a few days time, I was at that clinic. Thus started the journey of my transformation.
I was in therapy for two years, my parents had therapy on how to deal with my issues better and I had therapy cause at this point I had zero self esteem and confidence left. So I had therapy to deal with that, I had therapy on how to deal with dyselxia and ADHD. Every weekend for two years we used to drive to Dubai for a weekend full of therapy. I hope I can be the kind of parents my parents were, cause that definitely was mentally and physically draining. I guess they really loved me.
I know its random to mention all this, but the lady that ran the clinic came into my life like an angel - when I needed her the most. She came and changed me, she saved me. She taught me how to love myself (she wouldn't know years later a man would come into my life and erase the effort she made but for years after therapy - I did love myself. I was proud of who I was).
Today, my dad somehow searched for her randomly online and found her. And just like that he called her up. She was so happy to hear from him and was even so pleased to hear how I was doing - and how far (in her own words) I had come. It meant so much to me for her to say that to my dad. And now her daughter studies in Toronto and she said she wants to meet us all next time she comes to Toronto.
She was so happy to know I am going to be a psychologist too. It was such a wonderful thing. And since it happened right in the morning, it made me happy for the rest of the day.
Angels come in all shapes and sizes, we may not know but we just need to look closer :)
No quotes or songs for today. Somehow I think I won't be able to find anything that can measure this emotion and what it meant for me.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Love Yourself.
There is a journey we all have to go through. All of us. No matter what your creed, race or identity is.
This society so focused on lust and the notion of what romantic love is that in the process it is so easy to forget to love yourself.
Forgive your bad actions. I think we are our biggest enemy. People can compliment you, people can praise you. They can tell you inspire you and they respect you - but it will all mean nothing if you can't do the same thing for yourself.
See I know what my problem is. I have this weird idea that I am not allowed to make mistakes. Though I forgive too easily, somehow I can't when it comes to me. I beat myself up. For every little thing. I am my worst enemy. I make myself cry, I fill my own head with how I am not worth it all. I can't blame anyone but myself.
You know the thing they say, you gotta love yourself for someone else to love you. Its god damn true. Cliche for a reason. Loving yourself is not easy. You know yourself best. We all know our weakness, no matter how much in denial we are about it, we know it. So of course its easy to hate ourselves. Its easy to see only the bad in yourself and forget easily, very easily what you are and what you are capable of.
I have these phases where I start beating myself up for mistakes gone, and before I know it I am obsessing on how I screwed up. And I make it such a big deal in my head that I forget how far I have come from mistakes, how I am better cause of it and for it.
Loving yourself. Truly unconditionally. Accepting that its okay to not be perfect. Acceptance. Tolerance. And still Unconditional Love.
Nurturing your own self. All of those things are important. Truth is - no one matters. The only thing that matters at the end of the day is when you look at yourself in the mirror and what you think of yourself. Can you and will you give yourself a pat on the back. Will you be your own advocate?
I am learning to finally forgive, accept and love myself. My dears, its not easy but I hope to get there eventually.
Maybe one of these days I'll have news that I looked at myself in the mirror and was really happy for who I was. One of these days.
Quote of the Day: You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. Buddha
Appropriate Lyrics:
It's my life
Don't you forget
It's my life
It never ends
I've asked myself
How much do you commit yourself?
It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
It never ends.
Song of the Day: It's My Life by No Doubt
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Yeh Sab Ki Toh Life Hai.
This society so focused on lust and the notion of what romantic love is that in the process it is so easy to forget to love yourself.
Forgive your bad actions. I think we are our biggest enemy. People can compliment you, people can praise you. They can tell you inspire you and they respect you - but it will all mean nothing if you can't do the same thing for yourself.
See I know what my problem is. I have this weird idea that I am not allowed to make mistakes. Though I forgive too easily, somehow I can't when it comes to me. I beat myself up. For every little thing. I am my worst enemy. I make myself cry, I fill my own head with how I am not worth it all. I can't blame anyone but myself.
You know the thing they say, you gotta love yourself for someone else to love you. Its god damn true. Cliche for a reason. Loving yourself is not easy. You know yourself best. We all know our weakness, no matter how much in denial we are about it, we know it. So of course its easy to hate ourselves. Its easy to see only the bad in yourself and forget easily, very easily what you are and what you are capable of.
I have these phases where I start beating myself up for mistakes gone, and before I know it I am obsessing on how I screwed up. And I make it such a big deal in my head that I forget how far I have come from mistakes, how I am better cause of it and for it.
Loving yourself. Truly unconditionally. Accepting that its okay to not be perfect. Acceptance. Tolerance. And still Unconditional Love.
Nurturing your own self. All of those things are important. Truth is - no one matters. The only thing that matters at the end of the day is when you look at yourself in the mirror and what you think of yourself. Can you and will you give yourself a pat on the back. Will you be your own advocate?
I am learning to finally forgive, accept and love myself. My dears, its not easy but I hope to get there eventually.
Maybe one of these days I'll have news that I looked at myself in the mirror and was really happy for who I was. One of these days.
Quote of the Day: You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. Buddha
Appropriate Lyrics:
It's my life
Don't you forget
It's my life
It never ends
I've asked myself
How much do you commit yourself?
It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
It never ends.
Song of the Day: It's My Life by No Doubt
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Yeh Sab Ki Toh Life Hai.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Letter To Me.
Dear Shruti,
I know there are days when you don't feel like getting out of bed. Days when you stare at the ceiling and try to shoo away the ache in your chest. I know there are days when you don't feel like you're worth anything, or are incapable of anything great. I also know there are days you wonder if anyone truly cares and if someone can love you honestly for who you are.
I want to write this letter to you to remind you. Though you have those days. You are much bigger than that. You are strong, caring, powerful being. You hurt cause you have empathy, you feel cause that is your strength. People may tell you, you are weak and emotional. But use that as a good thing. Your pain will make you a better person and a psychologist. You have the power to understand other people's pain. It was the price you paid.
Rishabh told you that you are not god. Don't be so hard on yourself. Humans make mistakes, so you did as well. The thing that matters is that you get up now, brush yourself off, not let yourself be defined by one person's actions. He treated you bad cause he didn't appreciate you. The truth is it was a one sided love. Look at him now, he is back to his old mushy self na, the one he told you he had outgrown when he was not that with you but was that with Shree and Aparna. What does that say about him? He was the liar. Fine he didn't feel that strongly for you ever. Not everyone can love everyone right. Yes, it was wrong what he did. He shouldn't have led you on and told you countless number of promises. But in the end, it was not your fault. You loved him. You did what you had. Nothing was wrong with you. It was him. It was not you. He lied. He cheated. He didn't care. He used you as a toy. I know you are mad at yourself for letting him do this to you, but you were learning from it too. It was your first, you got carried away. You wanted to save everything, you wanted to be perfect, so you kept trying.
All those people that underestimated you. It was them, not you. You have a chance, and the power to prove them wrong. Your destiny is yours and yours only. No one can take that away from you. No one thought you would be where you are now. You are the one that has fought ADHD and dyselxia. You were the one that was seen as the foolish clumsy kid who had no sense. But look at you now. Look how far you have come. And look how far you will go.
You applied to 5 Psy.D schools and you got in 3. You applied to 3 M.A schools and you got in such an amazing school, and you have the other one interviewing you tomorrow and you still have to wait for the 3rd one's results on April 1st. Even if the last school is a no, look at the percentage. 5/8 schools. People just die to get in one school and here you have 5 amazing amazing top notch schools to choose from. And here you thought you were nothing. Can someone with nothing do this? Nahi. They can't. You did it. Why don't you see that? Why don't you see all this? Why do you want to feel bad for yourself. Shruti, this world is cruel. You show them you are weak and they will not be empathic, they will tell you indeed its true. Don't give anyone a chance to put you down.
Be the person you are, contiune on the path. You are the one that stopped cutting, you are the one with determination.
The stars and moon are in your reach. Everything is possible. Yes, life has been mean to you. But be grateful for the food, shelter, security, family and care you have. Be grateful. We suffer so we have humility to know we can't control all, cause only GOD can do that.
Breathe in, and smile. Life has been good to you. And if it hasn't been sometimes, you are who you are for it. Be grateful. You believe in Karma na. Then those that hurt you intentionally and misused your niceness and care will have what is coming for them. GOD sees all. Universe has a way of balancing things out.
The only thing you can control is YOU. YOU do everything the best to your capability. Rest is meaningless. REST is faltu.
Shruti, read this letter when you feel down. Cause my dear, you are amazing. Don't forget that and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Quote of the Day: The things people say and do to you says more about them then it does about you. From:
Nic's Old Blog.
Song of the Day:Wavin' Flag - K'naan
Appropriate Lyrics:
When i get older, they'll call me freedom
Just like a Waving Flag.
When I get older, I will be stronger,
They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,
Where I got grown, streets we would roam.
But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,
Among the hardest survival.
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,
Except no defeat, surrender retreat,
So we struggling, fighting to eat and
We wondering when we'll be free,
So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,
It's not far away, so for now we say
But look how they treat us, Make us believers,
We fight their battles, then they deceive us,
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,
Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.
And everybody will be singing it
And you and I will be singing it
And we all will be singing it
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Yeh Sab Ki Toh Life Hai.
I know there are days when you don't feel like getting out of bed. Days when you stare at the ceiling and try to shoo away the ache in your chest. I know there are days when you don't feel like you're worth anything, or are incapable of anything great. I also know there are days you wonder if anyone truly cares and if someone can love you honestly for who you are.
I want to write this letter to you to remind you. Though you have those days. You are much bigger than that. You are strong, caring, powerful being. You hurt cause you have empathy, you feel cause that is your strength. People may tell you, you are weak and emotional. But use that as a good thing. Your pain will make you a better person and a psychologist. You have the power to understand other people's pain. It was the price you paid.
Rishabh told you that you are not god. Don't be so hard on yourself. Humans make mistakes, so you did as well. The thing that matters is that you get up now, brush yourself off, not let yourself be defined by one person's actions. He treated you bad cause he didn't appreciate you. The truth is it was a one sided love. Look at him now, he is back to his old mushy self na, the one he told you he had outgrown when he was not that with you but was that with Shree and Aparna. What does that say about him? He was the liar. Fine he didn't feel that strongly for you ever. Not everyone can love everyone right. Yes, it was wrong what he did. He shouldn't have led you on and told you countless number of promises. But in the end, it was not your fault. You loved him. You did what you had. Nothing was wrong with you. It was him. It was not you. He lied. He cheated. He didn't care. He used you as a toy. I know you are mad at yourself for letting him do this to you, but you were learning from it too. It was your first, you got carried away. You wanted to save everything, you wanted to be perfect, so you kept trying.
All those people that underestimated you. It was them, not you. You have a chance, and the power to prove them wrong. Your destiny is yours and yours only. No one can take that away from you. No one thought you would be where you are now. You are the one that has fought ADHD and dyselxia. You were the one that was seen as the foolish clumsy kid who had no sense. But look at you now. Look how far you have come. And look how far you will go.
You applied to 5 Psy.D schools and you got in 3. You applied to 3 M.A schools and you got in such an amazing school, and you have the other one interviewing you tomorrow and you still have to wait for the 3rd one's results on April 1st. Even if the last school is a no, look at the percentage. 5/8 schools. People just die to get in one school and here you have 5 amazing amazing top notch schools to choose from. And here you thought you were nothing. Can someone with nothing do this? Nahi. They can't. You did it. Why don't you see that? Why don't you see all this? Why do you want to feel bad for yourself. Shruti, this world is cruel. You show them you are weak and they will not be empathic, they will tell you indeed its true. Don't give anyone a chance to put you down.
Be the person you are, contiune on the path. You are the one that stopped cutting, you are the one with determination.
The stars and moon are in your reach. Everything is possible. Yes, life has been mean to you. But be grateful for the food, shelter, security, family and care you have. Be grateful. We suffer so we have humility to know we can't control all, cause only GOD can do that.
Breathe in, and smile. Life has been good to you. And if it hasn't been sometimes, you are who you are for it. Be grateful. You believe in Karma na. Then those that hurt you intentionally and misused your niceness and care will have what is coming for them. GOD sees all. Universe has a way of balancing things out.
The only thing you can control is YOU. YOU do everything the best to your capability. Rest is meaningless. REST is faltu.
Shruti, read this letter when you feel down. Cause my dear, you are amazing. Don't forget that and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
Quote of the Day: The things people say and do to you says more about them then it does about you. From:
Nic's Old Blog.
Song of the Day:Wavin' Flag - K'naan
Appropriate Lyrics:
When i get older, they'll call me freedom
Just like a Waving Flag.
When I get older, I will be stronger,
They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,
Where I got grown, streets we would roam.
But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,
Among the hardest survival.
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,
Except no defeat, surrender retreat,
So we struggling, fighting to eat and
We wondering when we'll be free,
So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,
It's not far away, so for now we say
But look how they treat us, Make us believers,
We fight their battles, then they deceive us,
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,
Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.
And everybody will be singing it
And you and I will be singing it
And we all will be singing it
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Yeh Sab Ki Toh Life Hai.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
The 1st Special Day
This is my first post on this blog.
Every first post should be special. But last few days have not been that.
Perhaps I am being too hard on myself.
What was amazing about the last two days however was the weather. It was gorgeous outside. 15 degrees yesterday and 18 degrees today.
After having a crappy day yesterday and a crappy morning today, I got out - went to the doctors to collect my lab reports, got my eyebrows done and did grocery shopping and a chore for my mom. All the while enjoying the bright sun, I drove with blasting music and windows done.
And to top it off, I got a call from brok3n that totally made my day.
And now I plan on taking a nice nature hike around my neighbourhood, enjoy the sunset and amazing weather.
Quote for the Day:
Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving. Albert Einstein.
Song of the Day:
Pocketful of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield . Most of the lyrics fit me today.
Appropriate Lyrics:
Do what you want,
but you're never gonna break me,
sticks and stones are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh
I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies
The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright
Every first post should be special. But last few days have not been that.
Perhaps I am being too hard on myself.
What was amazing about the last two days however was the weather. It was gorgeous outside. 15 degrees yesterday and 18 degrees today.
After having a crappy day yesterday and a crappy morning today, I got out - went to the doctors to collect my lab reports, got my eyebrows done and did grocery shopping and a chore for my mom. All the while enjoying the bright sun, I drove with blasting music and windows done.
And to top it off, I got a call from brok3n that totally made my day.
And now I plan on taking a nice nature hike around my neighbourhood, enjoy the sunset and amazing weather.
Quote for the Day:
Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving. Albert Einstein.
Song of the Day:
Pocketful of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield . Most of the lyrics fit me today.
Appropriate Lyrics:
Do what you want,
but you're never gonna break me,
sticks and stones are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh
I got pocket,
Got a pocket full of sunshine
Wish that you could,
but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And the darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies
The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright
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